The weekend came and went. Monday passed me by and I hardly noticed. Today was just as mundane as the others and honestly, there's not a lot of hope that tomorrow will be anything but. A gloom has settled in me that not even the whipping winds of March can rattle. Quietly the days roll right into one another without me even noticing. It's been the longest winter I can remember and everything good about a cozy cold day has me wanting to scream. I want to scream out to mother nature that I'm tired of cold feet and cabin fever. I want to see her warm side, her vibrant side, the part of her that explodes with colors in every hue.
I did wake up this morning to the brightest sun I've seen in months, but by the second cup of coffee, it was gone. The clouds stole it away and left us with the dreariest of days. I thought about the beach and how I would feel listening to the waves splashing into the shore rather than the howl of the wind through my windows.
We're not very courageous people, although I want to be. I'm a dreamer but not very realistic and I try very little to make those dreams come true. But I can count on ten fingers and ten toes the reasons why we need to be courageous now and finally make something come true. We are working on our 'short list' of places to go and places to settle new. And all of them include waves splashing on the shore. I can hear it now even through the howling wind and rattling glass. And I hope it lulls me to sleep.
Sarah, keep your chin up! Not too much longer...hopefully :-/ fyi....Sometimes I go to youtube and search for beach sunrises/sunsets...just lay back and listen to the waves. Transport yourself. Meditation works wonders for me. Relax and focus on your breathing and the sounds. It can work wonders! Give it a try. Feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteWarm hugs -xoxo
Diane
Morning Sarah! Today I am experiencing what you felt yesterday. My tulips and crocuses are now covered with snow and a foot plus is to cover by the end of the day! The ocean calls me too and I have pretended a little by breaking out my seashells and scattering them through the rooms I spend time in. As I await the diagnosis of my 23 year old daughter's health on Thursday I too feel a bit gloomy with anticipation.
ReplyDeleteHope today finds you feeling better!!!
Sincerely, Jeannette
sarah i really feel your anxiety in this post. i don't know if i could live w/o the amount of sunshine we get here. being born and raised here it freaks me out when we get rain for more than 3 days straight. i'm not even kidding. i think i suffer from that sadd disease. have you considered getting one of those lights that counteract the gloom of winter? i hear they help a lot. sending warm love your way my friend. x
ReplyDeleteTake heart, Sarah. Spring has sprung in my neck of the woods and it won't be long before it arrives in the cold country. In the meantime, may you find the courage you seek and blessed warmth for your spirit.
ReplyDeletei came over from 'faded plains' and am so glad i did.
ReplyDeleteyour post is beautifully written and expresses more
eloquently the words in my own heart.
here's to a beachy tomorrow!